Well. It’s been a while hasn’t it?!
This isn’t the first time I’ve been on a bit of a blogging hiatus and I can’t guarantee it won’t be the last. This time felt different though. It wasn’t so much that I lacked motivation, which has previously been a big issue. If anything, it was quite the opposite. I actually ended up more motivated than ever.
I wasn’t happy with where my blog was at. I knew I wasn’t putting the effort in to it that I would have liked. At the end of the day, if you can’t get in to something there’s usually a reason why. But I still wanted to get in to it. Does that even make sense?! I guess what I mean is that what I really needed to do was find my blogging identity. What kind of blogger do I want to be? What do I hope to achieve? I know I have a voice, but what do I actually want it to say?
On the one hand I enjoy writing about happy, fun, easy going topics like make up and Netflix. But on the other hand, there are more serious topics I’m really passionate about, such as mental health, that I’ve previously pushed aside. I’ve done lot’s of thinking as to why that may be, I certainly knew that it wasn’t because I felt ashamed.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I just didn’t think my blog was the right fit for it. I’d told myself I would only write about this and this, just to fit in to a certain niche, and wouldn’t allow myself to go out of that boundary. Which, in hindsight, was just really bloomin silly.
Another thing I always got myself worked up about was how my blog looked. With so many incredibly talented people out there with their editorial looking pages, I felt like my blog looked like child’s play. I don’t have £700 to drop on a camera right now, as much as I’d love to, and my creativity begins and ends with words. I fell in to the trap of comparing myself with others, which is such a cliche!
It’s taken me all this time to realise that the only person I can guarantee will read what I write is myself, so surely that’s who I should be writing for! My blogs identity is an extension of my personality, it is my thoughts and feelings, my likes and dislikes. From now on I will be less strict on myself, I will stop worrying about what people think. I won’t edit my life through fear that someone that I know ‘offline’ will read my posts.
Having come to this conclusion, I’ve gone from wanting to delete my blog full stop and start afresh, to fully embracing my presence online. I’m now in the perfect mind set to crack on with creating content that I love, and I really hope that you enjoy it too!
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