Well it seems like it’s once again been an absolute age since I last posted. A combination of trying to focus on my day to day job, problems with my health and a broken laptop have all contributed to my absence. But fear not, I am back!
For todays post I wanted to refer back to this post where I talked about my hopes to become a healthier and happier version of myself. What has gone well, what hasn’t even happened, and where I want to go from here. I thought I would share the journey with you guys as the online community have always been some of my biggest supporters (for which I am eternally grateful!).
That post was published in March of 2017, so well over a year ago. I had just lost my mum, and had also just started a new job. It was full of optimism and hope, I really was determined to just plough forward with my life and live happily ever after. The sad fact is that things had to get much worse before they could get better.
As I’m sure anyone who has lost someone they love will agree, the grieving process is exactly that, a process. It can’t be rushed and vital stages cannot be missed. I’m happy to say that now I am in a much better place than I was. Rather that try and pretend nothing has happened or that it hasn’t affected me, I’m accepting that my life is different now, and that different doesn’t necessarily have to mean bad.
Unfortunately my new job didn’t work out. With the benefit of hindsight I think I wasn’t in the right place to be starting something new. I literally gave myself five days between losing my mum and starting. Perhaps with longer in between things may have been different, but I prefer not to dwell on that now. There were other factors involved as well which I won’t go in to, but I am grateful for the fact that I got to work with some incredibly talented people who were there for me at a time when I needed them most. I’m a firm believer in never saying never, so perhaps one day that will be a route I will pursue again, when I’m in a better position to give it my all.
It’s not all bad because I was fortunate enough to be welcomed back to my old place of work with open arms, and have been fully embracing it. I did have to accept a role with a lot less responsibility than before I left, but it has given me the chance to properly heal after what was a really bad year. I recently applied for another role, which I have since been offered, so will begin a whole new and exciting challenge at the beginning of September.
Of all the things I mentioned in my post last year, the one I have probably had the most success with is my health and fitness. I have lost a stone in weight over the last year, which is certainly something. I am on a lot of medication, most of which list weight gain as a side affect, so I’m conscious of the fact that I need to put in even more effort that your average person.
I did rejoin the gym and slimming world, but am trying to save for a deposit on a house at the moment, so I have cancelled both of those for now. Instead I have just been trying to make better food choices, and have learnt the value of portion control! I still feel like more work could be done in this area so I am planning to use my trusty MyFitnessPal app on my phone to monitor my calorie intake. I lost nearly three stone for my wedding using it so I know with good commitment and willpower I should see results.
Although I have cancelled my gym membership, I am still exercising. If anything, I’m doing more! I have joined a class called Flex Fit, which includes tai chi, yoga, pilates and meditation. The benefits on both my body and mind have been fantastic! I also go on a weekly walk around one of the local parks with my friend Michelle. We both want to build up our fitness so keep pushing each other each week.
My brother in law has also helped me to start running. If he ever gets bored of his current career he could definitely become a personal trainer! The running has stalled due to work commitments, my health, and the recent horrible heat wave, but I’m determined to stick with it. I’m using my sisters as inspiration as the eldest, Michelle (I have many Michelle’s in my life!) ran the London marathon this year, and Katy (who you may know from her blog School Run Beauty) ran her first 10K, despite barely being able to walk a few years ago. I want to take up Box Fit, which is done by the same company as Flex Fit, but the day that the classes are on unfortunately keep clashing with my shifts at work, so we’ll have to see what happens with that.
One thing I didn’t really go in to on my previous post was the challenges I face living with Bipolar Disorder. I think this was because I wasn’t prepared to put that version of myself out there, but that has changed now. I think it’s important to share my story, both for myself and others. I’m still deciding what approach I will take with that on my blog. I will either include it in these updates or do separate posts. Let me know your thoughts!
So that’s my update! I think we can all agree that I’ve gone on enough for now. Next week I will post my healthier happier me update week one take two!
If you’re on a happiness, health or fitness journey of your own please leave your links below so that myself and others can have a read.